what am I doing??

A final project report due at 12 in the nite......the clock is striking 4.54PM.........1/3rd of the report still to be done....and here I am writing my first blog......probably...no definitely this is one more manifestation of my innate nature of doing whatever I feel like doing then and there rather than restricting my urges....like i registered with Blogspot yest nite at 2.30AM just because I felt like doing so !!!......

ok...so now i have a medium to put down my thoughts....i have forced some time out of my schedule to write.......now what to write??

do i put down a disclaimer first for the sake of those people who might actually stumble upon my blog space and read some of the most pathetically phrased blogs with a shade of my egotism??

why am i writing this in the first place??probably this is just one more attempt on my part to move closer to myself.......

writing a blog at this instant seems quiet stupid though with my course grade at stake......but does this really matter??do i even know the answer to this question of mine??do i really know what really matters to me and what does not??why am i not able to answer this question??at a 20+ age should i not be knowing myself??

what is the meaning of truly knowing one-self??Is it knowing to do things that are good for you in the long run - like completing my project report now or is it doing things that give you the much wanted intellectual and emotional satisfaction??how do i really evaluate what i really want??If i have chosen to write this piece of blog right now why does a fraction of my brain go back to my project report due tonite??

why do i always feel this sense of duality??is it the same with everyone?????????????